Zeer's Soliloquy.

Dear May, thanks for the posts. This is going to be a "longer-than-quick-shorter-than-long" post but I wanted to look back at May for a bit. First of all, May marks the first month that I was able to reach double-digits in posts! This is a bit obvious but May is also this blog's best month for posts so far.   I am really glad that I was able to write up a grand total of '12' posts this month, I never thought this blog would last this long either but here we are!  I am very much aware that no one reads these posts but I'll just say that it still feels good to have something to continuously add to. In fact, this really does feel like a little space on the internet for me... My very own soliloquy if you will. Anyway, to my nonexistent readers! I hope to keep posting, I hope to surpass the amount of posts now, and I hope to make a blog that I can look upon with pride!  Thank you for reading! - Z

Life is complicated, writing too... I only have one question... Why? Writing a book is such a... Lonely? Anxious? Frustrating?  Scary? All of those things at once endeavour? For a couple of months I've been writing a story... A kind of test for myself to see if I can manage completing one. And let me just say, damn man, it's an inward struggle. I am  constantly battling myself to figure out what the hell is good enough and what's a bad decision. I don't have much friends... Shocker I know. But that makes getting feedback hard as hell. And I am aware that it's not their job to help me, and I have the internet to turn to, but I'll just say that it's much less embarrassing to get help from people you know. This is sounding more and more stupid as it goes on but just bare with me. I would say that being afraid of strangers is normal. Especially when you're as socially awkward as I am. And I'll admit it, I'd rather bury myself in games, shows, books,

Have been playing Skyrim again for the millionth time this century. Man that game never gets old for me. - Z

Call me 'Broken Cinderella' Welcome to another long post. This time it's about Cinderella Phenomenon! This is a post I never thought I would make. Honest. But after this happened... I figured I had to... Before we start let me preface this by saying that I won't be talking about Evermore, but I have played and done all the routes and achievements. Dont worry though, I will definitely talk about it on another post, so stay tuned!  Anyway, without further ado... Let's start! I say without regrets or take-backsies that I like Visual Novels and... Otome Visual Novels at that, and that I spent almost a hundred hours replaying Cinderella Phenomenon for no reason at all. I love Cinderella Phenomenon. I love Angielle. I love Lucette. I love Rod, Klaude, Chevalier, Fritz, and Waltz. I love all of them. I don't know how to explain how this even came to be, but, I will say that I do not regret this turn of events. I enjoyed it, all of it. Every single route, every single c

EDIT: This is now outdated because so much has changed about the character, first and most principle example being the fact that she is a woman now. Character changes happen overtime while developing them, and that is pretty cool I think. Who is that guy? If ya been around the block (My blog.) then you probably seen the name 'Rose Blanc' thrown around. Well to get the elephant out of the room, Rose Blanc is an 'OC' or Original Character for those unfamiliar with the shortened term.  (That word makes me cringe for some reason but there is no other word to describe him.) Rose Blanc is a poet, a man of art, and a man of bizarre style. I like to think of him as a wildcard of sorts, an unbiased, unbought, and unpredictable poet and artist that lives for beauty and its many facets.  Underneath all the romance and show though he is a powerful caster. An illusionist specifically, whose illusions are dangerous as they are beautiful. He comes from the Kingdom of Larosch (A kind o

Sleeping is hard... Sometimes :/ Since the pandemic started I've found it harder and harder to get good sleep and to maintain a good sleep schedule. I cannot for the life of me remember the last time I regularly got 8 hours of pure unadulterated sleep. This is hugely my problem and fault but I decided that there's no harm in complaining about it on my blog haha. I often find myself awake at ungodly hours such as 4-6am... And I always get something in-between 4-6 hours of sleep, never a full 8. I won't lie, I've bitched and moaned about this many a time in my personal life yet I'm aware that I'm the main and central cause of such strife.  Honestly it's gotten so bad that even when I need to be up early I find myself awake at the above mentioned ungodly hours... Which in turn nets me around 2-4 hours of sleep most of the time. My friends and family now know me to be low-energy 90% of the time. They just kind of expect me to be passively existing and desperatel

 I hate long ceremonies... Though I guess ceremonies that are short aren't really ceremonies.  - Z

 I bought P3P and P4G on steam because why not and P3P's sound is so crunchy lol. Nothing much for this post. Just wanted to say the P3P has crunchy, compressed, worse than on PSP IIRC, sound effects. This was a nitpick I had for SMT III HD (Which I mentioned in my blog post about Nocturne!) and I got to say, ATLUS come on man.

MONARK... I like it! MONARK, I first heard about this game back when it was announced in 2021. I heard it was a new RPG experience by ex-ATLUS employees, and whaddya know? I like ATLUS, and this was being sold to me as an ATLUS-esque experience that would evoke the feelings of old SMT. Fast-forward to something like... early 2022? or late 2021. I get the game... for PS4, now let me tell you something about the PS4 release real quick. It runs ehhhhhhh... And the more you play the worse it runs? Now, performance is not the biggest deal breaker and I'm happy to say, overlooking the performance, I enjoyed the game, loved it in some regards too.  So welcome! On this long post, MONARK! And why I actually like it. So let's start at the beginning, the idea of the game is... uh, dare I say it. Persona-esque. Not like modern Persona though, I would liken it to Persona 1 and SMT if, believe it or not. I thought huh, this was kinda cool, especially the little quiz at the start of the game

Just a quick lil post, dunno why but I've been feeling kinda disheartened lately. Like you ever get the feeling of wanting to discuss your interests but no one cares? Yeah, usually it doesn't hit me too hard, but rn Idk.  This blog really is my soliloquy in a way.  -Z

 Last post of the first of May. But I think this will be a bountiful month for blog posts.  - Z

Illusionaria I beckon the unattainable, impossible sight. To set the mind alight, emblazon the thought. I abandon logic and leave madness its way. Illusionaria, omnia, somnia, aeterna, we pray! Oramus pro magna illusionis, resurrectione! Evigila ad symphoniam somniorum, excitatio!  I beckon the unbeknownst, unfamiliar sight. To set the stage alight, emblazon the actors. I abandon all comprehension of reality's way. Illusionaria, veritas, falsitas, aeterna, we pray!                                                         - Rose Blanc

  Ango Natsume I feel you brother :[ Starting the month with a doozy. I present to you a mad and delusional post full of similar ideas and takes as to why Ango Natsume's character and arc from Persona 5 Strikers hit me like a damn truck and almost made me cry... Ugly cry. Lets start with the obvious. I love writing, I want to eventually author and get a novel published, and I am deathly afraid of being so very unoriginal that I'm hopeless as a writer. With that said we can ascertain a great many things I can relate to Ango with... To an extent. For one, I can totally relate to passion for writing. And let's go deeper with that shall we? I always loved a bit of writing, even if I didn't realize it. I always wanted to tell a story, a narrative, and I found that writing it down was my preferred medium.  I started with comic books that I made of paper and drew with pencils. They were short, sweet, two page folded paper comics that had simple narratives. I was so eager about